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March 15, 2006

When I Wished Her…Finally…

Filed under: Uncategorized — crazylass @ 10:03 am

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When I called her, she said she was talking to the moon. Asking him how the year would be for her.

She said she had a neat shot of vodka in her hand, and lot of memories in her head.

I asked her what she had in her heart…she laughed it off…

I told her to quit drinking. She said she would. Obedience was never for her. But when she told me she would, I knew she meant it.

She told me about the gift he had given her, a sketch of them holding each other.

She told me about the people who had already wished her.

She told me her anxieties of becoming a year closer to death.

She laughed at the awkward feeling in her that she called insanity.

She told me about her sleepless nights, how she thought about her real parents.

She told me about the tears that come out of her eyes, ‘just like that…’

She told me about her new office, about the mallu community there.

She told me she hasn’t been reading or listening to anything.

She told me how she has put on weight.

She said, she finally said, Wish Me My Birthday!

That’s when I wished her…

She said Thank You

I hung up.

I knew I should not be wishing her birthdays again.

I felt relieved…she had grown up!

March 13, 2006

birthday blues: the story of how i wished her…

Filed under: Uncategorized — crazylass @ 7:58 am

I don’t think I can blame her, if she feels extremely depressed about her birthday. The only reason being that until last year, her birthdays were an occasion for her.

She came to know she was adopted last year.

She had left home. When I called to wish her on her last b’day, she told me she was planning to drink. I told her not to, but in the evening, when I called her again, she was drunk. She cried out to me, said she bought muffins and cans of beer. Not that I think beer could make one sloshed…but she was. Any intoxication mixed with grief can make one high. That was, at least my experience.

Tomorrow is her b’day. I do not feel like wishing her this time. But I love her so much that I can not stop myself from wishing her. Ever since I have known her, I have. She has laughed, cried and frowned on different occasions. Reasons were weird. Sometimes, she was delighted thinking she was becoming older, sometimes, the thought of becoming more mature, sometimes, that I was late in calling her up.

Tomorrow, I should…do not know if she is still alive though. I call her only for her birthdays.

This year maybe she has lots more stories to tell me…

Happy birthday to her!

March 9, 2006

How do men become drunkards?Wives coax hubbies to …

Filed under: Uncategorized — crazylass @ 6:06 am

How do men become drunkards?

  1. Wives coax hubbies to drop them in a beauty parlour on a weekend.
  2. Husband is bored.
  3. Ten minutes has gone to 2 hours, phone is switched off.
  4. Hubby scoots to a nearby bar, orders a peg.
  5. Increases the number of pegs as the male chauvinist in him wakes up, growls and mumbles.
  6. Pegs after pegs, the wife emerges beautiful from the bar, calls hubby.
  7. Hubby picks her up, happily they drive back home.
  8. Back home she realizes he had been drinking.
  9. She shouts, frowns, cribs and throws things around.
  10. Hubby slams the door behind, walks to a nearby bar and orders few more drinks!
  11. The story ends here!

March 6, 2006

Familiarly Unknown

Filed under: Uncategorized — crazylass @ 7:48 am

I never knew that I would meet a face that was so familiar to me. It did not strike me when I saw her first. In the busy streets where laughter and shouts dominated her feeble voice, I did not notice her face and the expressions it adorned with every word she uttered.

Then, she held me hand. I realized it was cold. Maybe her heart was numb too. I knew he had also liked her. There was nothing in her that was not likeable. She his brother’s best friend suddenly became a grief for me. Not for a reason I know of, for the look in her eyes. She had been in this city for long. I wondered how I never saw her before. I have known her for ages. I knew I had…

She was talking to his brother’s wife about the list of favorite songs she had given him for his wife to study. I wondered what those songs would be; I knew it would be the ones I loved too.

I knew it would be the songs, aachi and I would have listened to. Suddenly I missed aachi. I wanted to sing, like the old times, when I sang sitting on the chair in the podium of the class and she sat somewhere in the middle bench listening to me. Tears flowing from her eyes, and finally when my song ended, silence would hum its sad tones again.

Chechi, I wished I had one like her. She had pain in her eyes. When his brother made fun of her, I knew it must have pricked her, deep inside somewhere, it would have woken up, that memory she was trying to forget. The lost love, the unconquered kingdom of solitude…when she walked away, I didn’t know I would miss her later.

I kept telling him that she was familiar.

Later that night, I called her and talked. It was mostly regarding the work I was doing and my company. I wanted to ask her more.

But there was a distance of thousand questions between us.

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